No Subject.
The feeling comes, then it goes, comes again, then goes again, and continues in that same vicious cycle. It’s scary, the risks that you’ll take, putting your whole self on the line, knowing the pain you were put in before. But you take the risk, hoping..maybe, just maybe, this time it will be different…
Slowing Down.
Sometimes I feel like I’m moving so fast and working so much just to consume my time and get my mind off of other things. By the end of my days, I don’t even have time to think. I am burned out, tired, & ready to sleep; only to wake up a few hours later and do it all over again.
I have no time for things things I love anymore; my family, my friends, reading, shopping, or even tweeting! I keep catching myself, closing my eyes, and thinking, “SLOW DOWN”. Then, I snap back into reality and look at my main focus in like, succeeding. But to what extend? Do I just lose myself in the midst of everything to simply make more money and gain seniority? All the money in the world could not buy happiness, right? Eh, my theories still vary day by day.
At this very moment, I want to slow down. I want to work less and reward myself more. I want to shop. I want to travel. I want to READ. I want to just chill. You know, watch TV, lay on the couch, & eat snacks. Is that too much to ask for these days?
Bleh.
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You gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad So will u bring a better future than I had in the past Oh Cause, I don’t wanna make the same mistakes I did I don’t wanna fall back on my face again..
Just Some Random Thoughts
- If you are over the age of 21 and have nothing to show for yourself, it’s your own damn fault. Keep hustlin, grindin, & get your priorities straight. I don’t get how people can be content with a life of no accomplishments. “You’re still young” is a stupid phrase and a crutch for those who are slacking! Get with it!
- I’ve been sleeping better at night. Usually a good solid 8 hours! (Tonight is NOT one of those nights.
-I signed to a 3 bedroom town house sporadically. Oops :-X Can’t wait to be living in the city! Goodbye traffic commute!
-I am pretty damn proud of myself. So blessed with life that I want to tell the world, but I’m still dreaming and I’m still grinding. Can’t stop, won’t stop. What’s next on the list?
-Planning a winter tropical vacay! Can’t wait to book :)
Peace, Bitches!
Finally.
WTF
If you’re out with me ever, please take my phone and my credit card away from me. I am a idiot.
Growing Up
This past weekend, my parents and I moved my little sister into her freshman dorm. It honestly never felt like this moment would come. I vividly still remember the day I started college. It felt like it was just yesterday I was settling into my indapendence, feeling like I would never see the day of graduation. Now five years have passed, and my baby sister is well on her way to travel the road I once did.
It was a very long road at that. The lessons learned, friendships, heartbreaks, moving (x509343), vacations, and random jobs all in between. I wouldn’t trade the world for all the experiences I had through out college. I cried, I laughed, but most importantly I grew and every single last moment contributed to the person that I have become today.
At the very instant that I saw my sister decorating her dorm and organizing her brand new college text books, I thought “it’s her turn now..”. It’s almost as if some higher power was telling me, you can close that chapter of your life. College is over. It’s been over. It’s time for me to grow up and finally stop yearning for that time in my life when I didn’t have any responsibilities. I could almost hear the myself say, “Yes, it’s time…it’s time for you to have a car payment. And yes, you should focus on your career. And yes, you do have to pay back your student loans.”
In the midst of this very busy summer and the past year that has passed by so quickly, time stood still as I said good bye to my sister and watched her embark on her new journey. I was taking a step over an imaginary line towards the next phase of my life. I took one last look back…smiled, cried, and laughed inside
